Saturday, December 25
merry xmas. - Saturday, December 25, 2004
my dae started.. it was juz so sian..
haish.. i noe 2dae's xmas n all n everyone's suppose 2 be happie.. but 4 me .. xmas this year isn't anyting 2 be excited 4.. call me someone with an attitude problem.. i dun care.. i really dun.. cos todae.. i woke up without a smile.. bcos reality had hit me straight in e face.. i tried 2 act as if there wasn't anyting wrong.. but tat left me feeling so damn tired..
mom asked me if i had a boyfriend today.. i said no. i guess in a wae i'm getting tired of this .. there haf been moments during part of tat converstaion when i juz wanted 2 tell her tat i had a bf.. but i guess it's alwaes best not to.. i'm getting tired abt lying to everyone.. i'm getting tired abt hidin it..
yesterdae was our one mth.. i was happie.. my only one..
putting on a mask is so tiring.. it kinda drains me emotionally n physically... i'm tired.. real tired..